For starters, "No, I am not pregnant." However, I'd be lying if I said the thought of baby #2 hasn't been on my mind lately.
You see, originally our so-called plan was to space our children two years apart. Umm, that would mean we would already have two kids considering Lincoln is 2 years and almost 4 months old. That plan obviously went out the window. When it was time to make those decisions, I wasn't ready.
I wasn't ready because I was having a huge struggle with my panic disorder. There was no way I could even consider taking on a pregnancy with that high of an anxiety level. I wasn't ready because my Dad was waiting for a liver transplant, and that was putting a lot of stress on me. The thought of being pregnant and having to go through that emotional roller coaster scared me. The unknowing scared me. I didn't know when or even if my father would ever get his transplant. Thankfully, that has at least finally happened.
And to be completely honest with you, I wasn't ready because I didn't want to give up that precious one on one time with my first baby, my sweet boy Lincoln. Let's face it. Baby #2 will never get the attention I was able to give to Lincoln. Sure I will love him or her just as much, but it will be different. So I figured, why rush it?
Jared and I made a new plan. We decided to wait until things in our lives [hopefully] settled down a bit. And in the meantime, we'd soak up this precious time with our boy.
Currently, we're thinking to start TTC at some point this summer. That would make Lincoln around 3 1/2 or so by the time baby #2 makes its arrival.
We've always known we wanted more than one child. I have a younger brother and I cannot imagine my life without him. I really hope for Lincoln to have that sort of relationship and strong bond with his sibling.
If we wait for "the perfect time," essentially we'll be waiting forever. We are going to have to take the plunge eventually. And while the unknown might be scary, it will be worth it. Everything will just fall into place.
So, I'm starting to get a bit excited about this new adventure we'll be embarking upon in a few short months. And.........
I bought baby #2's nursery bedding already.
Freakin' adorable, right?! And it's totally gender neutral, so whether we have another sweet boy again, or a little girl, it will work! I even picked this set up on clearance at Target...holla!!! I think it was meant to be...I mean, especially considering my obsession with giraffes, and recently all things yellow & grey! They also had these cutie giraffe crib sheets, so I picked up a package [or two] of those as well.
So there you have it, folks. Our tentative plan for baby #2. Wowzers.