The Momma Diaries: February 2009

Thursday, February 26, 2009

And the results are in...

I just got back from my follow-up appointment with the surgeon. My pathology report results were in, and I did indeed have thyroid cancer. The good news is that it did not spread to my lymph nodes...that is something worth celebrating! The cure rate for thyroid cancer is 99%...which is huge! When they say "things happen for a reason," they really weren't kidding! Had I not gotten pregnant in December, my nodule wouldn't have been discovered until who knows when..which would mean, I'd still be walking around with cancer today. Now, that cancer is out of my body! I will have to do the radioactive iodine treatment (RAI) but that should be a piece of cake. I will just go into my doctors office, swallow a pill, go home and be radioactive for a few days. My endo said I'd have to wait a year to get pregnant after I take the RAI, however, everything I've read online says 4-6 months, which seems much more doable. I have my next appointment with my endo on March 19th. I will hopefully set up a date for my RAI treatment then, and then discuss the pregnancy issue. He did originally tell me that I could get pregnant first, have the baby, and then do the RAI....but, I think it would be in my best interest to just get the RAI done and over with. That will be when I can officially move on from this crazy adventure life has thrown at us. While it sucks to know that I had thyroid cancer, I think I am finally able to be at ease knowing that I kicked it's ass and I'm on my way to live a healthy LONG life!

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Confession Time

Many of you may not know what I do to contribute to our income. Although I have a Bachelor's Degree in English, I am not doing anything with it. I do plan to some day, when our kids in school, or just when I get the itch to do something different. Right now, I sell on eBay. I sell a little bit of everything and anything, but primarily baby clothing. I go shopping and look for major deals...I'm talking the deal of all deals, I only buy things that are practically dirt cheap. They also HAVE to be a name brand. Some of my favorite stores to shop for these bargains are Gymboree, Baby Gap, Carter's, Marshall's, TJ Maxx, and Old Navy. Then I simply take pictures, and list them on eBay to resell! Although it is a lot of work, it is really a ton of fun! I think it allows me to go shopping for all things "baby" to appease me a bit until we actually have our own baby.

Well, right now Jared is laid off from work...he will be going back some time in April, so don't fret! So, while we are both at home, we decided to do a little (a lot) of shopping this week for our "eBay store." We scored some major deals indeed! And, I must confess, I bought a few things that I presently have no need for whatsoever, but just couldn't pass up! Old Navy is having a huge clearance blow-out right now, and I bought some maternity clothes. Yes, you heard right...maternity clothes! I bought two shirts for $2.50 each and these cute pants for $4.99...

Seriously though, how could I not buy them?! Such a great deal! Hopefully I'll be able to wear them sooner rather than later, but until then, they sit in my closet. Jared was actually all for me buying them and wanted me to buy more, but I set a limit.

As for a quick thyroid update...I am feeling better and better each day. Tomorrow is my big follow-up appointment with the surgeon and I will get the results back from my pathology report. Afterwards, Jared and I are heading to my parents house in Rhode Island for two nights to visit. Here's to hoping that my nodule wasn't thyroid cancer...and if it is, well then, it is.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009


My surgery went really well. I will find out the results from the pathology report when I go to my follow-up appointment with the surgeon on Thursday. I'm really hoping it wasn't thyroid cancer, but if it's gone now...I will just have to do the radioactive iodine treatment in about a month or so.

Now for the surgery details...I had to get to the hospital at 9am and they took me right away. The nurse took my vitals, and no surprise but my blood pressure was off the charts, 153/100. My heart rate was also elevated. Needless to say, I was very nervous. I was seriously sitting there thinking of ways to get out of having this surgery done...not a fun time. When the anestesiologist came, he gave me a nice little cocktail that immediately put me at ease. Jared gave me a kiss, told me he loved me, and they wheeled me into the operating room. I remember sliding over to the operating table and them telling me they were going to give me something to make me sleepy. Next thing I remember is waking up being wheeled into recovery. My voice was a bit weak and I had some nasty stuff in my throat, but there was no pain. I spent two hours in recovery, awake the whole time, waiting for my room to be ready. Everyone that came in told me that I looked great and that I didn't even look like I had surgery! I don't know if they were just trying to make me feel good, but I really didn't feel all that bad. They also gave me a beta blocker to slow my heart rate down...I was told it was elevated the ENTIRE surgery!

When I got to my room, I was greeted by Jared and my parents. They didn't allow anyone in recovery with me, which really ticked me off! The nurses kept asking if I wanted anything for the pain, but all I took was tylenol. Jared was able to spend the night with me, and thank god he did because I barely slept at all. Around 10:00 the nurse gave me a shot of Heparin, which is supposed to prevent blood clots. About 10 minutes after my legs started shaking uncontrollably. The nurse came in and didn't know why this was happening, but my heart rate was up to 158 bpm so she ordered an EKG. That came back normal, other than my heart rate being elevated. My legs stopped shaking about 30 minutes or so after they started. I am not sure if it was related or not to the shot, but it was pretty scary. Jared and I both didn't end up falling asleep until around 3am between all the noise and nurses coming to check my vitals, and we woke up at 6am. I had the surgeon and a few people who were on his team the day before come and check on me, as well as my endocrinologist that morning. They all said I was doing well, and shocked I was only taking tylenol! They told me they removed my entire thyroid as well as two lymph nodes. My calcium levels came back normal and they discharged me around 11am.

When Jared and I got home, we were both so exhausted from the night before, that we both crashed for 4 hours. We laid in bed all day watching movies. I don't know if it was some medication from the day before wearing off of me or not, but that night I had a crying fit for no reason at all. I was just thanking Jared for everything he has done for me and how lucky I am to have him, and then came the water works! That night I also got sick once, it was pretty gross.

Now here I am 6 days post surgery, and I feel really good! My neck is a bit swollen where the incision is and it feels tight in the area. I also can't completely move my neck all the way yet, but that's okay. I am really just so happy that it's over! Thanks again to everyone who has been there for me, and left me well-wishes. You are all truly amazing, and I am very thankful for your support.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Wish me luck!

I don't think I'll have the opportunity to write again before tomorrow morning. I still don't know what time I'm supposed to be getting to the hospital, they are supposed to call me at some point today. I also just got a letter from my insurance company saying they approved me for a "partial thyroidectomy"...I'm supposed to be getting a TOTAL thyroidectomy. I think I'll have to mention this to whomever calls me from the hospital later...and again tomorrow. Jared and I are going out for the rest of the day...I will write when I get home from the hospital!!

Monday, February 16, 2009

Two in one

Whoa! Two posts in one day, I'm pretty amazing! Jared is playing in his hockey game, and I'm just here waiting for The Bachelor to get's one of my many vices. Did I mention only two more days until I am without a thyroid?! That is pretty crazy stuff. My father inlaw told me he'd cook me whatever I'd like for dinner tomorrow night, which was sweet of him. My mother inlaw follows up by saying "it could be your last dinner!" WHAT?!?! Who says that?!?! A friend of mine told me earlier today that my MIL has "diarrhea of the mouth," and I think she couldn't be more right!

Jared and I are supposed to be going to the Lee Outlets tomorrow. I told him I wanted a fun-filled day of shopping! He will be so happy once my surgery is over, that's for sure. Last night he woke up at 2am and couldn't go back to sleep. He's been having difficulty sleeping ever since I got my biopsy results back. My parents are going to be there on Wednesday as well, and I'm really glad about that because he won't have to wait alone. He is such a wreck! I'm trying my hardest to be strong for him. He gets to spend the night in the hospital with me at least! That makes him and me both very happy. I think I'd freak out if I had to spend the night alone. I'm starting to come to terms with the surgery and be slightly less nervous. The only part that freaks me out is being put under. I have done it in the past, 5 times, and have always done fine with it...however, the whole concept of it freaks me out completely!

My sister inlaw just sent me this picture of my adorable niece Mallery. Apparently she jumped in with the stuffed animals at Walmart...she's a cutie!
I want to thank Andrea who's blog I have faithfully been reading about her experiences with thyroid cancer and her surgery...she has answered numerous amounts of questions for me and really has helped to calm me down quite a bit! She is such a sweet woman and I am very thankful to have found her blog and for her to share her experience with me.

I also want to thank all of you other ladies who have left me such sweet, supporting comments. It really means a lot.

And, of course I have to thank Lori, because really, she's the best best friend in the world!

Okay, I think I've babbled on enough for one day...and the Bachelor is now on!

My DH is the sweetest

Valentine's Day was very low-key. We didn't end up going out because Jared was SO beyond exhausted from vinyl siding all day. He literally passed out at 8pm while we were watching movies. I did however make him some yummy cupcakes, which came out incredibly yummy, and gave him a sweet card.
The next morning I woke up to a beautiful little display on my desk, with the sweetest card ever...

I had to take a picture because it was so sweet! Besides the most sweetest card ever, he got me these beautiful pink letters that have glitter around the edges and spell out "LOVE." He was definitely taking notes, because I saw them in Target awhile back and he remembered! He also got me a package of Hershey's Kissables and Cadbury Mini Eggs....mmmm!! DH scored some bragging rights, so I figured I'd share ;)

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Valentine's Day

Mine and Jared's first Valentine's Day was the most memorable. We had only been together for a month or so, and he went all out. When I arrived at his town house, there was the most beautiful peach and pink rose in a vase on the table...this is the reason why I chose to have pink and peach roses in my wedding bouquet. There was also a cluster of hershey kisses that he formed in the shape of a heart. Jared also had a trail of hershey kisses leading up the stairs into the bedroom, where there were flower petals all over the room. So romantic. He literally swept me off my feet and continues to do so each day. It's days like today that I like to stop and think about everything he is to me, and how amazingly lucky I am to be his wife.

Today we are keeping things relatively low key. We're planning on going out for an early dinner and then coming back home to cuddle up and watch movies. Such a simple day, but nonetheless sweet. Just being with him, spending time together is really all I need. I think sometimes we start to lose the true meaning of Valentine's Day when we go all crazy with the over-the-top expensive gifts. To me, just loving and being with that special person, no matter what it is you're doing, is truley a gift in itself.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Surgery is Set!

Today I had my consult with the surgeon who will performing my thyroidectomy. He impressed me as soon as he walked in the door. My endocrinologist already spoke with him about my case so he was familiar with who I was and that I have Osteogenesis Imperfecta. He is the head of surgery which is also pretty nice to know! He told me that thyroidectomies are one of the most painless surgeries. He said the recovery time is about a week. He asked when I wanted to schedule the surgery and I told him that our niece and nephew were coming to visit on March 6th, so I either wanted the surgery asap or wait until after they leave so I'll be able to enjoy my time with them. He told me his surgery schedule is usually very busy but he just had a cancellation for this coming Wednesday, February 18th. He told me he would be happy to let me fill that spot so I'd be good to go for March! So, obviously I booked that date.

I asked him about the risks of damage to my parathyroid glands. If this were to occur, I would need to take calcium supplements. He told me he has never damaged someone's parathyroid glands. Sounds good to me! I also asked if he would be placing a drain inside of my neck after the surgery because I have read that sometimes surgeon's do this. He said absolutely not...another plus! My thyroid will be sent to a patholigist who will do several biopsies on it to test it for that nasty C word. He said it will take about a week for those results. He again reassured me that even if it is cancer, there is a 99% cure rate.

So, I just got home from Target. I got my prescription for Synthroid filled. I will start taking this on Thursday as a replacement for my thyroid hormones. This is the cute little blue pill that I will be taking for the rest of my life. My endo started me on 75 mcg, but I'm not sure if that dose will change in the future. It will all depend on my TSH levels.

I really am relieved that by next week this time I will be home from the hospital and on my way to recovery. The surgery will be OVER! I called my mom to tell her all the information and she said I sounded much much better, optimistic, and excited even that I have a set date. I suppose in a way I am. It just means being one step closer to putting this awful crappy experience behind me.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Consult Jitters

Well, tomorrow is the big day. I finally have my consult with the surgeon for my thyroidectomy. By this time tomorrow, I should have the date for my surgery. I am really hoping that it gets scheduled for next week. The sooner the better! I cannot take waiting any longer. I think my anxiety will calm down once this is all over with. I have my list of questions ready to go to ask the surgeon. If anyone has anything else they can think of that I should ask, please please add me a comment! I don't think I could ever ask too much information! So far I plan on asking him how many thyroidectomies he does per year. It is recommended that a good surgeon perform at least 100. That sounds like a lot, but it's really only two per week. I am also having this surgery at UCONN which is a teaching hospital. I want to make sure he will be performing the operation, NOT a student. I don't want my incision to be botched by a newbie! Hmm...that's all I can think of right now, but feel free to let me know of anything you come up with. I will write tomorrow to let everyone know how the consult goes.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Weekend Time!

The weekend is here again! No big plans really...Jared's working on the electrical for our house all day today and tomorrow. Tonight we're headed to a friends house for a little get together. There will be 8 of us there...and the girls are getting manicures! One of our friends is going to school to be a nail tech and she asked us if she could practice. Should be a fun time!

I'm getting anxious for my appointment with the surgeon this coming Thursday. I should leave there with a set date for my surgery, which honestly...I'm terrified to have, yet at the same time I really just want to get it over with. I really think I'm too young to have to deal with this shiit! But, has thrown this little curve at me and I'll beat it down for sure!

My brother inlaw, niece, and nephew from Tennessee are coming to visit March 6-15th. I am super excited! We have not seen them since May, I'm sure the kids are HUGE! Mason is 5, and Mallery will be 4 on February 22nd. Jared and I try to be the best uncle and aunt and send them things in the mail all the time! I cannot wait to see them again. I am hoping my surgery will be done the week after my consult that way I will be all recovered! Having them come to visit is something to look forward to...and right now, I really need that...

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

What should I do?!

Okay. I'm officially losing my mind. I am researching "thyroid nodules suspicious for papillary carcinoma" like a mad woman. After reading many many articles, most seem to say the same thing, "85% of these suspicious nodules end up being non-cancerous." Which would then mean I'd have surgery for no reason at all, other than to lose my thyroid and go on medication for the rest of my life. One article in particular has peaked my curiosity. It goes into great depth saying that if you have any sort of thyroid dysfunction, including these suspicious nodules, then you should see a thyroidoligist, rather than an endocrinologist. This certainly has me wondering. I located two doctors, both are in Boston. I am contemplating calling their offices tomorrow to see when they could get me in. It seems silly to have to go through surgery if I do not need it. But, then again, why would the endo recommend me for the thyroidectomy if he didn't feel I needed it? Ugh - I am in quite the predicament. I must say, it was so much easier when I was a kid and I had my parents to make all of these difficult decisions for me. What if I choose the wrong option? What if I have the surgery, and it's not cancer? I'm not asking for it to be cancer, BUT it just seems unnecessary to have the surgery if I'm okay. I have my consult with the surgeon on February 12th. That is only next Thursday. I am so unsure of what to do!

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